I spent the day, thinking of you, wanting to be close to you, everytime i close my eyes I could imagine the touch of your body against mine, the sound of your voice and the way you look at me.  I check my inbox over and over incase you have sent me a message, anything makes me smile, even just a Hi.

refresh....nothing......refresh......nothing....refresh....1 new message

My heart races and I see your name in my inbox, I take a breath and click the message, my eyes scan the message quickly taking it all in, I smile as your words mean so much to me, I hit reply and tell you that I feel the same way, and that i hate that we can't be together.

I sometime wonder if you realise what you mean to me? and also what I really mean to you, we talk through email each message means more to me than the last.

Then I dawns on me, this is the internet, its not the real world and its possible these are just word that mean little more than what is written at the time.

I sit down and close my eyes, this time thoughts of your body against mine are gone, the sound of your voice or the feeling i get when you bite your lip and a distant memory, I suddenly feel alone, just me and my laptop alone.