My first real session

Up until this point I was actually in control of the sesiions I made: I don't have this, I don't have that, I gotta go, etc. This was the first time I felt I didn't have a security net under me. Mistress had been clear: get tobasco, clips, lube and a shoelace. Be ready at 9 and have time for a long session. This wasn't a chance encounter, this wasn't a simple and pleasant chat, this was it: my first act of actual submission without safety net, this time I would do as told, till the end. I was very excited and very nervous for this. As expected, I had a few days of abstinence to heighten my sexual capacity and was looking gorward to release, which I hoped I would have. So, very covertly I got everything ready and arrived at my place for the show. I took a shower, got a towel, took the things out, prepared the pc and webcam, tested everything and got online. Waiting for your partner to show up is usually stressing enough, especially when you're going to be experimenting with probably some pain. But doing that naked, oj public chat, anouncing that you're ready, that you are a sub takes things to a whole new level. Some people came by, I chatted a bit, and then I got the message "Mistress Celine entered the room". I'll be honest, my dick twitched. It twitched rather violently. My fingers almost trembled when I hurriedly typed hi and hoped she  change her mind. She was very polite and caring as always. Then she asked if I had everything and was ready. I kept the chat open and public. If you want to know, it makes a difference, a big difference.

At first I was told to tie my balls. Then, a bit of joi and edging. Then I was asked yo put the clips on my nipples. I got to say, I'm not super tolerant to pain, but I got it with a shovel in my mouth once and I could take it pretty well, but this was way too much. The clips were too strong and actually made my nipple bleed a little. At first it was a matter of actually being able to put the clip, then, I couldn't hold it there. Mistress suggested that I put a bit of paper so it didn't hurt so much and I could actually tolerate for a while, before noticing that something was wrong. I must say: I lked the sensation of jerking off while feeling the pain on my nipples. It was very satisfying and entrancing. But I still have too low of tolreance, after a bit I couldn't take it anymore and asked my Mistress to take it off, because it was bleeding a little. She was very nice to me and allowed me to take it off. Then, she edged me a few more times, in different ways, and asked me to put some tobasco on my hand. My heart started beating wildly, my throat dry and my hands shaked. I was really afraid that I wouldn't be able to take it but I made sure my hands didn't hesitate. Then, Mistress told me to rub it on my cock head. I obeyed. To be honest, I was relieved when I only felt a slight warm sensation in my cock head. But that didn't last long. She then told me to slowly jerk my cock head with lube. Still nervous, but more controlled, I happilly obeyed. Then it started to burn. A little at first, but then it got unbearable. The more I jerk off the more it burned, but I did as told, like a little good boy. I wanted to do as told, to obey. And I did but soon I started begging. There was no pleasure, I was riding the burning sensation. Surprisingly, I was able to cum on command, and quite a lot at that! The cum spurted of my cock several times, making a large poodle on the wood floor. My knees bucled and my muscles gave a little. But there was no orgasm, just the  relief of the blue balls and the satisfaction of being an obedient sub. I must say I really enjoyed the whole session. It made me look forward to training. The satisfaction of my Mistress was palpable and a sense of acomplishment filled my chest. In the entire session never I stoped feeling exposed, vulnerable, submissive. I don't think I can get without that rush, to deliver voluntarily my free will and put it in someones hands. And I think Mistress Celine is the right person to do it. I hope she agrees.