So I finally did it last night I was able to fulfill my lifelong fantasy to suck a cock. You see I've been married for 35 years and only ever slept with a woman, but I've always had that desire, that question, that wonderment of what a cock would taste like.When I was about 19 I saw gay porn for the first time and knew that it intrigued me but I just never did anything about it. I've explored gay dating sites over the years, fantasizing, gay men are aggressive by the way, they want to fuck like right now and that's not what I wanted. I had a very, very specific fantasy in mind, I've jerked off to it many times and always knew that IF I actually followed through it would have to be exactly what I desired. This desire would continue if I did not follow through, the fantasy part was so hot to come true and made the whole experience even more erotic.My wife was out of town on a trip with her friend, and I hopped on Grindr and posted my fantasy. About 13 different guys responded to me. Now I've posted it before, usually while traveling, looking for the perfect opportunity and would usually get four or five guys, most were my age, gross, you see if I was going to do this, I needed it to be a smooth young dude. In my mind and fantasy, he was dark skinned, but could be olive color, Italian, Latino, Black or Asian and a clean smooth shaved cock and balls.I was only going to do it once, I had no interest in any ass play, I just wanted to know what it was like just suck and jerk off a dude. So, after about two hours of looking at profiles and ALMOST just jerking off like usual, Ethan messaged me and we starting flirting.

Ethan went ballistic over the plan, thought it was totally hot and agreed to play it out the way I fantasized about. I got petrified yet again, considered backing out as I didn't want him coming over to my house, that just seemed a little weird, so I rented a room at Embassy Suites. I'd been there before with the family and knew that the rooms were pitch dark. Now I had gotten this far in my fantasy before and chickened out, OK three times is the truth. One time I had a super-hot Latino guy on his way to my house and I just wouldn't give him my apartment number, he was literally outside the gate sending me messages on Grindr. He was so hot too, I mean exactly what turns me on, young, hairless, beautiful Latino guy. I just couldn't do it, was afraid to follow through. The other two other guys I discussed hooking up with hassled me for two weeks after I said they could be my fantasy. Not great experiences, any of the three.Here it was, the actual fantasy coming true, I had the chance, I'm married, 52-year-old man and I'm about to suck and jerk off a 19-year old's cock. Wow! Neither of us said a word, as agreed, once on my knees I reached for his shorts, both hands on the sides, pulled them down and before I knew it his rock hard teenage dick was bumping me in the face. It's interesting to fantasize about something for so long to wonder what it smelled like, tasted like, what it would feel like to the touch. And here it was!

I know how I like head and that's softly. I like the undertip licked and the shaft worked from the bottom so of course that's how I did it. He was 19,rock hard, definitely 7-inches long. I licked the under tip and started to slurp on it, I thought he was going to cum right then, his cock was shivering and that made it even hotter for both of us. He had pre-cum drip, very little pubic hair and was fresh and clean smelling of Irish Spring soap. I was going nuts, it really turned me on, just to work his shaft up and down and realize how hot turning another guy on actually is. I slowly reached down with my left hand to begin lightly stroking my cock as I gave Ethan his blow job.  I prefer my cock sucked softly, delicately, making my cock work for the touch and stimulation, so that's how I worked Ethan's dick... softly.I started to take about 5 inches of it consistently, it wasn't super thick, worked it in and out of my mouth quite easily as he continued moaning. That will be the best memory I have, that moment, of me working that ***** cock knowing that he was ready to blow his wad in my mouth and that moan, whoa, that moan! I've never had a blowjob from a man, but I have a feeling it would be quite epic because we know what feels good and I'll tell you what Ethan felt good. I could tell he was ready to cum, his balls started to shrink and contract and even thought I wanted to swallow it I pulled it out jerked it all over my face. The warm salty spew all over my face was exhilarating, so hot! I have tasted mine but for some reason I didn't swallow, had really planned on it. I did clean up his cock though, got a pretty good taste of cum, I should have swallowed the whole load and am disappointed I didn't but whatever.

Fantasy is complete, I did it, I am no longer curious but can now say have experimented and am maybe partially bi-sexual.