I've come briefly out of retirement and, as befitting my punk personality, it ain't to post a lovey-dovey poem!
It's to express in verse my deep sadness that a chatroom friendship, which I thought would last for a long time, has ended (for me, anyway) in somewhat depressing circumstances. I guess it's a factor of the internet and Life in general that things happen that are out of our control and you just have to accept the consequences, no matter how much you want things to continue like they were before. I am sure the other person concerned will be absolutely mortified at this turn of events but I have decided to be pro-active for once in my life and stop waiting in the hope of a PM every so often, or a 'hello' in the chatroom followed by relative silence, etc. As the poem says, "A taste of honey is worse than none at all".....
I'm sure she will agree that our relationship will never be quite the same again and besides, I know she will survive without me as she has built up quite a little following of her own now!!! Quite rightly too, as she is a lovely, kind-hearted person who deserves a lot of love in her life and I am glad that she is now surrounded by people able to give her that affection.
I'm posting this blog just as a reminder to people that, even though you may be sure that your friendships on this site are solid and will last, there's always the chance that circumstances will put a spanner in the works and destroy your 'perfect' relationship. So beware and make the most of them while you can!!
Anyway, that's my little statement out of the way, it's out in the open and over with. I can now concentrate on trying desperately to keep my other internet relationships on an even keel, although with my warped personality I wouldn't be surprised if I have another "friendship over" poem to post in the near future! LoL
Enjoy....!
They say things don't really last forever
And that a change will come to us all.
But tell me, how was I supposed to know
That our friendship was heading for a fall?
When we first met my heart leapt for joy,
I'd found someone that made me feel so good.
Hours spent chatting and laughing as one,
The way two people drawn to each other should.
It seemed to me that a real purpose would be
To get to know this lady from a foreign land.
A solid bond to be forged over years to come;
But too soon I found we were building on sand.
For I see clearly now how fragile things were,
'Cos one little nudge was all it seemed to take
To bring everything crashing down around my head.
And your harsh words, how they made my heart break.
Your false accusation and your oh-so deaf ears
Still make me feel like crying, you know.
The moment where things turned sour for you
And left me in silence with nowhere to go.
No PMs, no whispers, no more cosy chats in MSN,
But you tell me that you'll still remain a friend.
Well, that's fine with me, I never wanted us to part,
Though the torture of seeing you in chat must end.
'Cos I can't bear your cold shoulder any more.
You give innocent excuses but still build a wall
And I hear the words of Smokey telling me that
"A taste of honey is worse than none at all."
So forgive me if I no longer plead or beg with you,
You've made your intentions clear to me and so
It's with a heavy heart I draw a veil across us.
Here ends my belief in love and my tale of woe.....
“I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies.”
(Pietro Aretino: 20th April 1492 – 21st October 1556)